Dont just settle for comfort.

A comfort zone is something that is really easy to lose yourself in. In some ways, a comfort zone can be an amazing thing to turn to. Not everyone has somewhere that they can just go and feel a sense of complete serenity. Where no amount of stress, anxiety, tears, or troubles can outweigh the calm that a comfort blanket can wrap you in: that's a comfort zone and mine just happens to be my family. 
I grew up with a great amount of support which I thank God every day for. I couldn't imagine being the person I am today without it. Having my family live 20 miles away from me has been one of the most rewarding things about going to college. But in some ways I think that I confide in that security too much and I have a hard time being me and doing the things that I want to do...not because they aren't allowing me, but because of where I'm at. 
With nobody to blame but myself, I am finding that the longer I spend in Greeley, the more I become unhappy with how my days are being spent. And it always resorts back to the one constant reminder of the reason I planted the roots of this chapter in my life here in the first place. 
If you aren't happy with the way things have been going, don't keep doing the same things you've been doing because you're going to get the results you've been getting. Which sparks an interest in wondering what things would be like if I looked for happiness somewhere else? God has a plan for us all and as much as I love having my family to come home to when I'm just having a bad day, I just cant help but wonder, is this really what God wants for my life? Or is my comfort zone holding me back from achieving the dreams that I want and living the life I'm supposed to live. 
I just wonder what I could do while I'm still young and not tied down to anything. Where I could go, who I could be. 
How many of you are settling with where you're at  just because you're comfortable when you know how much potential you have to offer? 
The result of that is the mediocrity in this world. 
Just something to think about.

The quantity of friends doesn't matter if the quality of them isn't any good.

You establish friends early in life. For me, second grade. I was fortunate to meet my best friend in elementary school and since then, we've been inseparable. I've never looked nor needed another best friend...because what's the point in having a best friend when you have more than one? It's a funny thing really...no matter how far away or how intense the argument, it always seems to work out. Besides its dangerous to lose your best friend. They know too much about you.

You establish acquaintances later in life. High school, college, work. They're the ones who are there for the time being, but you never really know if you'll talk to them once you leave that place. Its kind of sad because whats the point in even building up a relationship unless you intend to keep it?


I have been having a hard time finding the true meaning of a friend lately. No, not because I'm picky but because I can not and will not put up with the bull shit any longer plain and simple. Most of my friends and/or acquaintances I would give the shirt off my back for. I love my friends to pieces and thats why I would do it. Not because I expect anything in return. One thing I don't expect in return though is to be screwed over time and time again. The benefit of the doubt is such an evil thing. You always wanna leave it up to someone to do the right thing after they've screwed up before. Bad idea. Usually when a friend hurts you the first time they're going to continue to do so. "Shame on me if you fool me once, Shame on me if you fool me twice."

Thats when you just decided to pull it together and realize who is making an effort to be in your life and who is doing just the opposite. I've realized that the older I have gotten the quantities of friends don't make a difference if the quality of them isn't any good. Surround yourself with the right people and the rest falls into place. I love my friends and those of you who have stuck by my side thank you :) you make each day a little brighter. 

Much Love. 

Shout out to my friend Paulina!! Thanks for reading my blogs :) 

If you're too busy for God....You're too busy.

I feel like a hamster in its wheel. I've been running so fast lately that I haven't had time to really reflect on the things that are making my life feel so mediocre. Things that are dragging me down. 

I had this feeling today that I just needed to do something to break my routine. Something awesome. Something that made me feel good. 

This was urgent. 

I texted one of my friends and asked her about some of the church events that she goes to. There was one tonight!! How convenient is that?!?!

God heard my prayer and he made something happen... quick. 

Tonight I went to Christian Challenge. It's going to be exactly how it sounds. A challenge to me to rekindle my faith and stay faithful to my faith. Once a week is all it is. Two hours out of my busy schedule to give my undivided attention to our one and only savior. Theres nothing else in this world that only takes two hours that can make me feel as incredible as those two hours did tonight. 

I have been struggling finding the right path for myself in life. Im kind of freaking out because I'm 20 years old and it's time to pull it together. After tonight no questions about it. God heard my cries and I feel like everything that was discussed, the verse, the worship songs, the prayer, everything hit the nail on the head. It was an absolute moment of clarity. It's like he planned it out for me. 

"If you're too busy for God, then you're too busy" -this was something they mentioned tonight and it really hit home for me. My excuse for not going to church/bible study etc. is because I'm too busy....but I'm not. I can and will make time. Its my challenge.  

                                  

I'm just so excited about this!!! SO excited. 

Facebook Just Wasn't Cutting It For A Blog

I called and talked to my mom yesterday and upon our conversation we started talking about a small slump that I have found myself in lately. Bored, under motivated, grouchy. All of which resort back to my decision on ditching the party life style which in turn, most of my friends ditched me. So she encouraged me to find something to do with my time....something that I love. It brought me here: to writing.  


I write constantly.
When I'm not typing on my computer, I still have a constant flow of ideas running through my head. Some of which I like to consider "brilliant" (not always true). Thoughts I don't want to forget...so I write them down on scrap paper, note cards, post-it notes...and when I'm really desperate, the backside of a gum wrapper.
Social networking is a great way to document those thoughts but if I put every thought that runs through my head on Facebook, I would get told to take it to Twitter, which I have also tried. It just doesn't do my writing justice.....I have considered blogging more than once and for being in the prime of the 21st century I'm ashamed to say I haven't been able to figure out all the technical stuff that goes along with blogging.
I started messing around with it at 8:30 last night looked up and it was 12:30....needless to say this is as good as its gonna get.
I feel a little more comfortable putting my writing in a blog rather than Facebook anyways. Facebook seems like walking my posts into oncoming traffic. Its a busy place and it makes my posts more susceptible to negative remarks some of the snoody "friends" I have on there anyways. I'm self conscious about my writing and its really important to me. So this way, if you really care about it, you can go out of your way to read it on my blog. (Although some I may decide to post on there anyways. Depending on the kind of day I'm having)
I hope you enjoy and get something out of it. Cheers to more social networking addictions.
Much Love.